Being That Girl

Ironic that I am writing this on Friday the Thirtieth, because what I am about to write isn't easy for me. For the past two months I have been struggling with something within myself. I tried giving it up for Lent but that didn't seem to work either. Finally, I counted one day. Over 30 times-- that scared me. So I am changing-- I am changing me!

I am changing that way of thinking. I am becoming the better person. I am becoming That Girl.

The person I referring hurt my friends and myself. Sure there was some not so nice things said by us but there was so much conflict created by the girl. It soured many relationships through the group.

We finally cut her loose from our group of family and friends. Since we were all moving away from Huntsville, anyhow. We are all happily in Tuscaloosa now and away from the drama. We had forgot about her until one of us noticed during a trip at Disney that she had deleted us.

Then toward the end of January was when the thoughts started. These were not thoughts I was familiar with and it scared me. It was consuming me. Then I started working on it by myself. I thought I could do it alone. Though the thoughts became worse and worse. The color red would blind me. I would feel tense and satisfied.

Then yesterday, I prayed and confessed everything. Not only did I confess to God but also to my best friend. I knew it could go two ways-- One, she would hate me and decide to just let me go. Or, she could accept me and hopefully help me. The latter is what she decided to do. She said that she understood and wished I had come to her sooner.

Most of you know I have an Erin Condren Life Planner and On the Go Notebook. What does that have to do with this post? Well until April 1st, 2015 they have products supporting the group called I AM THAT GIRL. Erin Condren has some great products and 25% of the proceeds go to support I AM THAT GIRL. There is a bundle (which I bought), cover, notebook or a Life Planner. Again, the I AM THAT GIRL collection is available until April 1st.

What exactly is I AM THAT GIRL? They build online and offline community to give girls a safe space to DISCOVER, BE and EXPRESS who she is. They CREATE, CURATE, and ADVOCATE for premium and user-generated content for various distribution channels to inspire healthy conversations and honest perspectives. They are providing tangible tools and resources with an interactive curriculum to teach girls emotional intelligence, professional skills and personal development.

Who is That Girl? THAT GIRL is the best version of each of us. She's all ages, ethnicities, classes and religions. She’s got a smokin’ hot heart and drop dead gorgeous mind. She is forever a work in progress, she seeks to be confident in her own skin. She speaks her truth, sees the best in others, and is leaving this world better than she found it.

I signed the pledge and was very proud of signing of my name to this pledge. It is exasperating for me to deal with this inside my head when this person was no longer worth my thoughts. In time I might be able to think nice thoughts but for now this is my last thoughts about that person and things surrounding her.

My first change after signing the pledge was taking some of the not so nice pins off my Pinterest. The rest that I like to use for some fun jokes with people were moved to my jokes board. After that I had a talk with my daughters. We agreed that we are going to not only lift others up but each other up as well. It was wonderful to see them all hug.

So take the pledge today and don't fall victim to plaguing thoughts like I did. Become THAT GIRL!